Mike,
About your next trip to see Jessica, have you considered getting married to her on that next trip at all??
Seems to me, that everything you have said on the final days of your trip and since returning home, have all been on a positive thread....
So i'm asking, are you thoroughly convinced of your feelings for her?? are you convinced that her feelings for you, are just as deep/strong?? If the answer to both those questions is Yes, then it may be an idea to be thinking along the lines of making that next trip a planned marriage trip. Maybe something along the lines that Arnold described above. I'm not suggesting that you start that plan now, ...see how your qq/web meetings and email communications get along first of all. I guess that a lot also depends on your success in finding employment too. ( By the way, best of luck at your interview on Monday morning)
It's right what your saying, you rarely see the full picture of things until your out of the circus. That's when you tend to see all the little things, and some of the important things that didn't really cross your mind at the time. The 2+2 actually starts adding up to 4, and not the 3 or the 5 it seemed to be doing when you were in the thick of it. I suppose what i'm really saying is that things start falling into place, and realisations starts kicking in, you suddenly become aware of different things, the whys and wherefore's start making sense... etc!!
All of this realisation can only help you to know what you want, know how to get it, and the means of how to move forward in getting what you want.... I know you have a lot of working out of things still left to do, but i'm pretty sure what path your set on taking. I know your eyes and mind are going to be wide open as your moving along that path too....
Were all wishing you both luck and success in these coming months Mike....
David....
