Hi guys I know I said I would update you once I reached England...BUt, as you probably figured out I need a bit of a comp fix. I'm in Hong Kong for the next 7 hours waiting for my flight to london at the moment:huh: Gonna be a long night!!!
Well as promised Anne turned up this morning right on the button, so we decided to go up town as I didn't haver to be at the plane toll 12ish, I think it was?
Any way she is very very quiet and of course I know why...But what can I do to stop her feeling like this except try and put a brave face on it. Which under the circumstances I tried but failed miserably...We ger into this cafe and she sits really close to me with her hand on my leg...I tell you now, the way I was feeling, there was no way, I could have done anything, or wanted too. Although I suppose I could have let her really;-)
For the next hour she is on and on about, how she hopes that I will be back..Of course now that I've read abit more I know about the insercurities...So what I done was, I said to her, "I have a few things I would like you to keep for me, for when I return will that be ok?" She said "Ol, and a little smile came omn he face" I kept whispering in her her, "Wo ai ni, and that I will miss you". I did not know, in fact (I thought she didn't) she gave me a qq number, her email addresss and her work number. Making me promise that I would be in touch all the time. At this I was delighted.. So I said I would. So as soon as i get online again I will set up a QQ account which I don't have just now. So Please Mike I hope you will help me with this...
We started heading back and I held her hand, (remember the way I was feeling about that the other day!,,Well I wanted to do it. We got into the hotel and I find that there is a note for me from the manager of the hotel? It was a list of schools that she knows that are also looking for teachers. so this is good, when I show them to Anne her face lights up..She mentions that "everyone wants you to stay" so I nod but feeling really down and upset..BUT still not showing it...
We go upstarirs and just lay together again holding and kissing,,, I go to the bathroom then when I come out my alatm goes off...It's time to go...We leave the room and she is walking behind mme. I can her her sob softly, I cant do anything with these cases:huh:
Mike you were right, the airport is a long way out...It seemed to drag on for about 2 hours. Not a lot was said going to the airport, she just lay head head on my shoulder and held me tight..
Once there, we wenyt to a corner and I started to unpack a few things for her to take home for me. Teaching books, some clothes, my cd's and I gave her a gold cross and chain that my mother had bought me 22 years ago, She knows HOW pprecious this is too me..So I think she got the message I was coming back...Anyway we walk up and I put my bag through, I still have an hour and 15 minutes before boarding.. I don't want to go into too much detail here. But Ronan I NOW KNOW what you went through. I had kept my emotion in check til then. We bot hsat crying together. Before I went into the gate, she told me she "loved me", and then said "Rob, PLEASE BELIEVE THIS". I have no doubt in my mind that this is true.. The time came and it was like trying to tear yourself away BUT you just can't..I knew it had to be done, so I finally gave her a lst lingering kiss. Wiped away a tear from her eye and said I love you...
As like others I looked back, and she was in bits there and then...It makes me wonder what it was that has made it right for us? Why has she (and I, for that matter) fallen so hard ...so quick? Once on the plane before take off, i called her and we said our final goodbyes just as the plane took off. Once i arrived in HK...The first thing I done was call her to make sure she was ok...And she was...She wants me to phone her tonight about 11, because she knows the plane was going to be late, and she wants to say good night to me.
JimB once gave a brother a piece pf advice (as well as others) and that was NEVER break a promoise to them... I made a promise, and I will NOT break it, I will call at least twice a day and send her gifts, as well as QQ when it's sorted... Well guys going to go now speak later...Still feeling a little down, although I know it will pass...