I need update my relationship status. Martin, you may not be psychic, but you are observant.
My relationship with Candy blew up the other day after an online incident. We were talking casually on Monday, when Candy decided to send me a QQ screen shot of herself. I immediately felt a knot in my stomach. I felt that it was another strange thing that she does in terms of her vanity. I asked her why she would send me a photo of herself when I can see her in front of me. She could not answer me and tried to brush the question aside. But I wanted to know why she would want to do this. I know this may not sound like a big deal, but it was another incident in a long line of vanity issues I felt at odds with. I did not want to be involved with a self absorbed woman. About a week ago, she had her eyebrows tattooed. Hell knows why. But It did not bother me. What did happen though, was that I had a friend come to me house when I was talking to Candy. I introduced them, and told them that Candy had her eyebrows tattooed and that her eyes were swollen. Candy was very annoyed with me that I told them. I then told her later that if I had my hair dyed, that it would be obvious to everybody that I had dyed my hair. No big deal.
Anyway, I got angry and told Candy that I had had enough.
I recently asked Candy why, out of all the men she could have chosen, that she chose me. What did she like about me? I always complimented Candy about her appearance, or encourage her if she got English pronunciations correct. In answer to my question, she said that there was no reason why she chose me. There did not have to be a reason! I then told her some of the things that I liked about her, to give her an example of what I meant. I am not insecure, I just wanted some feedback.
So by this point, I spat the dummy and felt like I could not continue a relationship with this woman. She has sent me many QQ messages telling me how hurt she is, and how critical I was of her. This may be the case, but I felt there were too many differences between us. I did not even want to save our relationship at this point. I told her, I would move on if she could not justify her behavior.
So I have moved on, with very little resentment or regret.
I have met a more mature and responsible woman on CLL. I have not wasted any time, and I do not feel like I am being needy. I want a relationship with an intelligent, affectionate and mature woman.
I am very hesitant to say too much, but this woman feels much softer and interested in me. We connect very well on an emotional and spiritual level. I do not want to rush this relationship, but I feel very connected with this woman. I have done a lot of 'speed dating' on CLL to meet this woman.
I have also been introduced to a sister of a Chinese man, who is a friend of my Chinese friends I know here. Chinese people certainly know how to network!
I am out of work at the moment, so I have been very focused on meeting more women.
So, that is what has happened in the space of a few days for me. Bored?, certainly not!
If things go well with this new woman, I will keep you updated. I am feeling quite positive at the moment.
