Hey Jo-Ma , I feel for your Pain . It's a good Pain though , to know it went all the way you have hoped it would . So , there are going to be many day's coming up , it might even get worse . So you talk to her what ever way it is possible , think of what you have gained from this Trip ? It's not Pain . it's actually Happiness . So do as Irish and myself do for that , have a Beer or a glass of Wine , kick back and day dream or cry whichever comes first ? If you think it is hard now ... wait when it's for the second or third time , leaving her behind . This is a big price we all have to pay , for nothing other than great Love in return .