Well I think she really does love me. I mean we still talk a couple times a week. She always tells me she is excited about her interview for her tourist visa. We actually discussed what was going to happen if she recieved her visa, she told me she wants to come and be with me a month. She wants to live a happy and free life while she is with me. So I asked her if we were going to try to work out our relationship while she was here. She has alot of friends in her ear, she has told me they dont think i am able to take care of her. So i am beginning to think its not her, its her friends. So I am really at a loss about what is going to happen. So I have learned a lesson. When having a contact with a chinese women I cant just talk about how good of a man i am, and how i am an attentive lover or how i want to have a wonderful family. I have talked about more practical things in life. I have talked about money, and careers. I am not allowing these women to know me now. I have completly closed up. So If i see you Arnold it is because i have found the girl who opened me up and really wanted to know me. The girl who shared her heart with me first. I am willing to spend the time and money for someone i love and KNOW i have a future with. Not another girl who looks at me as a means to an end. So we will feiern the new girl.
