Guys, thanks to everyone who responded to my plea...
After many hours of soul searching and reading, and rereading all the replies that I received including PMS, I have decided that I am going to follow my heart, and my head (not little one), I am going to China to start my new life with Keren...
This was one of those times that come up between divorced or separated couples, when emotions (habits) come into play... She hurt me in a way that I would not be able to forgive if I did go back, it would always be in the back of my mind, if she can do it once she can do it again and the marriage/couple would never be the same.. So again I thank you for your help
I now understand that 'YES' I do love her and if truth be told, I always will, but I am NOT in love with her, like I am with Keren
The quote from that book, that is so true on my behalf, everyone's kind words got me through what was a difficult time, I will never forget this, if I was a drinker i would raise my glass to you all, cheers. You truly are a band of brothers...